{"id":1576,"date":"2009-11-02T07:00:09","date_gmt":"2009-11-02T11:00:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/faithfilledmom.com\/?p=1576"},"modified":"2009-11-02T23:56:45","modified_gmt":"2009-11-03T03:56:45","slug":"chapter-18-how-will-i-handle-the-future","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/faithfilledmom.com\/chapter-18-how-will-i-handle-the-future\/","title":{"rendered":"Chapter 18 – How will I handle the future…"},"content":{"rendered":"

Serenity Prayer<\/strong><\/p>\n

God grant me the serenity
\nto accept the things I cannot change;
\ncourage to change the things I can;
\nand wisdom to know the difference.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Living one day at a time;
\nEnjoying one moment at a time;
\nAccepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
\nTaking, as He did, this sinful world
\nas it is, not as I would have it;
\nTrusting that He will make all things right
\nif I surrender to His Will;
\nThat I may be reasonably happy in this life
\nand supremely happy with Him
\nForever in the next.
\nAmen.<\/strong><\/p>\n

–Reinhold Niebuhr<\/em><\/p>\n

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\"Me

Me and my kids<\/p><\/div>\n

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Hey God it\u2019s me Lori, <\/em><\/p>\n

I can\u2019t believe it is so close to the time that Jake will go to school.\u00a0 I am so happy with my life the way it is I don\u2019t want to think about the changes that lay ahead of me.\u00a0 Please help me to realize that you will accompany me in these changes and I will not be alone.<\/em><\/p>\n

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How will I handle the future \u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I tell my youngest child Jake the four year old when he starts to talk about school to bite his tongue and not be so mean to me.\u00a0 I can\u2019t stand the thought of all of my children being in school all day long.\u00a0 I love to be with my children.\u00a0 Many times in this book I have told you that many people think I am crazy, well there are many reasons why.\u00a0 The main reason I think is because I love being with my children.\u00a0 Do I love every moment I am with them, No but I still stay with them anyway.\u00a0 Most moms get excited the night before the first day of school I always cry.\u00a0 I usually take all four of my children grocery shopping and clothes shopping with me; they are fun to be around.\u00a0 Why would I want this time to end?\u00a0 I don\u2019t but they keep growing no matter how much I threaten them to stop growing up it keeps happening.\u00a0 I was so overwhelmed recently with the thought that they will all be in school soon that my husband and I revisited the idea of having another baby.\u00a0 He has never left that open for debate before that time.\u00a0 I thought about it for a few seconds and said, \u201cNo I am almost 36, if we were going to have more we should have done it 3 years ago.\u201d\u00a0 I love my family and am very content with the number of children. When I get that itch for a baby I just find a baby to baby-sit.\u00a0 That is part of the reason I baby-sit because I love to have lots of children around me.\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I considered just continuing to baby-sit when Jake starts school full time but decided against it because it would only make me want my children with me even more.\u00a0 So I will try to find a job 9am-1:30pm from August-May off at Christmas vacation and Spring Break.\u00a0 Good thing I depend on God to help me find it and he will, something will happen. I have faith that God wants me to still be a mom, walk them to school, home from school, do homework and be an enormous part of their existence to continue to guide them and love them like no one else can.<\/p>\n

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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I am not so much concerned about getting a job as I am losing part of my identity.\u00a0 I love being a mom and I know it is not over when they are in school I will just be facing a new chapter of my life and theirs.\u00a0 I just love this part so much I don\u2019t want to let it go.\u00a0 Just writing this chapter makes me tear up.<\/p>\n

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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 So how will I handle the future the same way I have handled the past with faith in God that he will guide me where I need to go.\u00a0 With dedication to my children so that my job will only be a job during those hours so that all other hours are dedicated to continuing to raise my children in a faith filled caring atmosphere.\u00a0 With a willingness to learn, grow and development as a child of God.\u00a0 With the strength it takes to keep a balance in my life no matter what road I walk down.\u00a0 More than anything listening to God\u2019s call to me and constantly adding to who I am so I can be a better person tomorrow than I was today.\u00a0 No matter how old my children are I will always be a Just a Mom.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Serenity Prayer God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen. –Reinhold Niebuhr \u00a0 \u00a0 Hey <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":1583,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[61],"tags":[350,301,22,53,1655],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithfilledmom.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1576"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithfilledmom.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithfilledmom.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithfilledmom.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithfilledmom.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1576"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/faithfilledmom.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1576\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithfilledmom.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1583"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithfilledmom.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1576"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithfilledmom.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1576"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithfilledmom.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1576"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}